Making Peace with the Past
The 'making peace with the past' theme could not have come at a more perfect, but also more difficult time for me. December 26th of 2015 marked 10 years since my best friend- my dad, had left my life and his physical body. I spent the entire month of December mentally and emotionally preparing myself for this day, somehow thinking that if I thought about it enough I would be able to control how I felt. But what I realized as that day came and passed, was that I have made peace with this past, and that I don't need to control whatever that feels like.
On that day, I let myself cry, I let myself feel the rollercoaster of emotions that one does at the loss of a parent, I let myself feel vulnerable, and I also let myself laugh, I let myself smile. As I stood at the cemetery that day with my mom and my brothers, for the first time, I didn't look down at the grave, but I looked up at the sky. I looked up at the sky because I knew thats where I could find him. This journey for me hasn't been easy, but I can honestly say that yoga has helped me reconcile and accept more of my past than I could ever have dreamed. And of course... the journey continues!
Lokah Samastah Sukhino Bhavantu!