Posts tagged death
May Theme: Dvesa

Dvesa is an obstacle (klesha) in the way of freedom. It is our avoidance of pain. I noticed during the spring month of April that I had a  lot of internal rules that helped steer me clear of things which even remotely reminded me of past pain or echoed possibility of pain. I'm, at times, too good at learning. Having built up a stockade of "don'ts" I realized this month it was time to tear them down and let myself walk into fires that once burned me.

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Making Peace with the Past

The 'making peace with the past' theme could not have come at a more perfect, but also more difficult time for me. December 26th of 2015 marked 10 years since my best friend- my dad, had left my life and his physical body. I spent the entire month of December mentally and emotionally preparing myself for this day, somehow thinking that if I thought about it enough I would be able to control how I felt. But what I realized as that day came and passed, was that I have made peace with this past, and that I don't need to control whatever that feels like.

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